Friday, August 28, 2015

Breathe.


Sunshine On Rainy Days

Today was a drizzly day here in Wisconsin. And I know that for me, I tend to feel a little more sad on these kinds of days. I went to school not feeling well, yet again, and it frustrated me. And when I got to school, I broke down. Quietly.

In all honesty, it's hard. I don't like crying in front of people. And I was surrounded by my friends this morning when the tears flooded my eyes.

To all of you who have experienced something similar, I hope you have people who are always there for you 100%. Because, this morning, I felt like I had nobody. My friends hadn't really made any effort to communicate with me this summer. And let me tell you, this summer was when I needed them most. But suddenly when they watched me cry at school it seemed like the right time to step up and be "friends". It frustrated me. Sure, I had two people ask me this morning "what's wrong?" and tell me it would be okay, but for some reason, I didn't feel any better. You know why? It's virtually impossible for me to tell you what's wrong. Most of the time when my sadness gets the best of me, I am not able to pin point the source of my pain. And hearing that it will get better only reminds me that I'm not okay right now. And in the moment, that's all that matters.

To those of you who read my blog and do not have anxiety or depression, I ask that you choose your words wisely when trying to comfort somebody. One thing I love using is God and His love. He will make things better. He will make it okay. If you're going to use the phrase, "it'll be okay", use it cautiously. Use God as you speak. He is the ultimate source of comfort and peace. Sometimes, it's even best to just not say anything. For example, in chapel the other day, the pastor spoke about Christ and the sacrifice He made for His bride- The Church. He loved her enough that He died for her. He related this to marriages in our world today. This reminded me of my parents and of everything that's going wrong. Before I had time to cry, one of my friends took my hand and just held it. Squeezed it tight and didn't say a word. Sometimes silence speaks louder than words.

What I'm trying to say is, find those people who understand you the best. The ones that aren't as self-centered. The ones who will be there for you through everything. Because if there are people in your life who you do everything for, but they aren't willing to lift a finger for you, are they really going to be of good support during your battle with depression/anxiety/etc.? Probably not. And this is something that I only came to terms with today. I'm not saying drop them as friends. Not at all. I'm saying that you can find people- perhaps it's only one or two- who will always be there. It's not the number of friends, it's the quality of your friends. We all know it hurts to run to your friends who won't help you when you need it. That's how I felt today. But there is always going to be those few rays of sunshine in your storm. And I can promise you that I am always going to be one of them.

I'm sorry if this post was a little confusing. For some reason I can't find the right words to express my thoughts tonight- it was a long week at school! Hope you all had a fabulous day, and thank you so much for the 2.3k views! God certainly is taking me places with this blog.

Shining brightly in the light of His love,
Marissa Mayer

"Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble,
and he brought them out of their distress.
He stilled the storm to a whisper;
the waves of the sea were hushed.
They were glad when it grew calm,
and he guided them to their desired haven.
Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love
and his wonderful deeds for mankind."

-Psalm 107: 28-31

Thursday, August 27, 2015

Identity

Hey guys, don't really have much for tonight, but I just wrote a nice essay for English class and about how I identify myself, so I decided I'd share it with all of you so you can get to know me a little better.


From the beginning, God started creating a plan and an identity for each and every person in the future. Each person’s identity provides them with distinct characteristics that makes them a unique individual. God blessed me with my own traits too, including my passion for music, intelligence, a driven attitude, and caring for others. I can also identify myself as a Native American and Christian.
I can boldly say that music has definitely helped shape me into the person that I am today. My love for music began the summer after 4th grade when I began playing the flute. I picked the instrument up quite easily and impressed my teachers. Only a few years later, I began playing the alto saxophone. It wasn’t until high school however, when I really felt a passion for this beautiful form of art. I have learned to appreciate music more, and play with more musicality, all thanks to my band director, Mr. Thiel. He helped me through the lowest points in my music career so far, and rejoiced with me when I accomplished great things. He keeps my spirits high when I am frustrated with a particular piece of music, and I am truly grateful for him.
Along with my passion for music, I consider myself to be quite intelligent. I was born as a premature baby with fetal alcohol syndrome, and yet grew up to exceed the expectations of my teachers. I have received excellent grades since the beginning of my education and I believe this to be a true blessing from God. Even though I was born so early, I still grew up to beat the odds that were against me.
While my academics are very important to me, I wouldn’t be where I am without my driven personality. I always try my best and I turn to my Heavenly Father to provide me with the necessary strength when things grow rough. Being driven has also helped out in my music career. When I struggle with a piece of music, I continue to try and perfect it. This facet of my identity is very useful in my everyday life.
Throughout my everyday life, I face many challenges. Most recently, I have been struggling with my depression and anxiety as my parents begin the process of their divorce. I am lucky enough to possess such an amazing faith in Jesus Christ, and I cannot imagine where I would be without Him by my side. This inspired me to start my own blog titled, Depressed But Blessed, which has now been in existence for a month. I feel that I should share my victories in Christ with others, so that they are able to trust in Him when they are struggling too. I truly care about those around me, and hope that this project ends up being successful for both myself and my viewers.
Along with my personality traits, I possess two collective traits that help define who I am. I am a half blooded Native American, which comes from my biological mother’s side of the family. I appreciate my ethnicity because it holds an exceptional history and even offers scholarships. Therefore, being Native American proves to be an advantage in my life, and I am proud to be a part of the Chippewa and Menominee heritage.
Lastly, I stand as a proud Christian. Christianity is by far the most important quality about me. It defines who I am the most and is the basis of my belief system, upon which I base my morals. My faith is the biggest blessing in my life, and therefore I enjoy being able to share such a great faith with others. I will continue to love because Christ has first loved me.
Each of these characteristics and personality traits come together to build my unique identity. I certainly would not be the same person if it wasn’t for music, a driven attitude, my excellence in academics, or my loving attitude towards others. I will continue to thank God for creating my unique self and loving me so greatly. Each characteristic is a blessing to me, and I hope that I can bless others by taking advantage of  each of them.

As always, hope you had a good day! God is good at ALL times.
Blessed by the best,
Marissa Mayer


    

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Peace In The Chaos

So, I just finished setting up for my college course (Medical Terminology) through LTC, and needless to say, I'm extremely nervous. It's going to take a lot of work...along with everything I'm currently doing at school. But I'm also excited- on the road to becoming a doctor! 

And I understand that it's extremely easy to feel overwhelmed with stuff. School, work, and things at home. It can be incredibly hard to balance things out and find a good pattern for yourself to get into. But, once you do, things get a lot easier! I think it's also extremely important that we don't let these things get in the way of our relationship with God. In fact, I think that those may be the times when you need Him most! 

God is faithful. He always keeps His promises. He is steady when our world is shaky. He is our help in time of need. Today, in Christian Leadership, we read a really fantastic piece of scripture:

"We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed." - 2 Corinthians 4:8-9

Even when things get crazy and rough, He is our mighty fortress. Our source of peace. Another great verse is John 14:27, one of my Theology teachers showed me this verse last year when my depression rolled around:

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

In the chaos of life, we can always count on Christ to calm our fears, troubles, and anxiety. He has given us His peace. And we also can find His peace in the hope of eternal life with Him. 

May He comfort you with His peace,
Marissa Mayer

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Busy Busy Busy

I apologize for the recent inactivity on my blog. School just started and I've been pretty loaded with homework!

I'm taking all of the advanced classes that my school offers, and I'm in the process of starting my college course- medical terminology. Besides that, I need to be able to practice my instruments, keep my job, and spend a decent amount of time with my family. And lately, time hasn't been on my team.

The past two nights I've stayed up way too late doing my homework. Totally focused too. Pushing my phone aside and completely putting my attention into my work. There were so many times when I grumbled and complained about it all. But I felt totally accomplished when I was done! There were also many times where the stress just seemed a little bit too high and let me tell you, those are perfect opportunities to pray. Use prayer as your hotline to God. He is always the greatest comfort when we are in need! Even if it's just about something as simple as homework. Sometimes, my anxiety gets the best of me, and I know I can count on Him to calm me down. Otherwise, I suggest opening your Bible for a few minutes. It doesn't take long to flip to Psalms and find an uplifting verse. (Trust me! I'm in the process of reading through the entire book. A project I'll explain another day...)

But trust that God is faithful and is always willing to listen to you. In fact- He wants too! Go ahead and tell Him all about your day. He loves to hear from you!

I apologize once again for not posting these past few days! Life's been busy. Hope each and every one of you had a fabulous day.

In His unending and undying love,
Marissa Mayer

Friday, August 21, 2015

Loved

Well, the first day of school was a success but I unfortunately went home sick today after 2nd hour.

I'm having some issues with my health- I'm feeling weak and not eating enough. It's extremely frustrating and I feel nauseous a lot too.

But in the mean time, I'm trying to do a lot of praying. I'm looking for answers and I understand that they might not be the ones I want. Just waiting to feel better.

I'm so excited to be back at school though. I'm a junior now and I just don't know where all the time went! I'm supposed to be working on a devotion for my Christian Leadership class and I was assigned Ephesians 3:1-21. I picked out a part of there that was really great to base my devotion off of.

"I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord's holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge- that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God."

To all of you who didn't have the best day like me- know that you are loved. Know that things will be okay. To all of you who had a great day- know that you too, are loved. If you don't believe me, let's trying something.

Just take a moment. Close your eyes. And try to fathom the width, the length, the height, and the depth of Christ's love for us. Imagine Him dying a terrible death for you. For me. For the entire world.  Isn't it beautiful? It's beautiful because our finite minds cannot imagine how much He loves us.

In His love & strength,
Marissa Mayer

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

1.5K VIEWS!

1.5K views! No way! I'm beyond thrilled! You are fabulous!

Don't really have a good post tonight because my day wasn't very exciting and I have to go to bed because I start my first day of junior year tomorrow!!

Hope all of you had a lovely day. Your support means the world to me. I hope I'm seriously touching some of my viewers out there. I just want to help everybody because I'm in the same boat that most of you are. I know anxiety. I know the endless nights of crying. But- each morning is a new one. And I'll be here for each and every one of you along the way.

Depressed but always blessed,
Marissa Mayer
xoxo

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Sick

I had a terrible day. I felt really gross at work so I went home. I cried the whole way. I climbed into my car and cried.

I've been feeling sick for the past month or so now. My mom thinks it has something to do with everything going on at home and such. She's probably right. But I'm beyond irritated. I wish that for once, this depression would stop interfering with the rest of my life. I had to leave work...thanks to it.

Frustration is the best word I can think of that describes how I feel. So on the way home. I prayed. Out loud. I asked that God would make me feel better. Because I'm tired. Tired of fighting.

And you know what? It's like I instantly felt Him surround me in His love. It's an indescribable feeling. It's during times like those where I wonder how people survive without God. Because let me tell you- I need Him. He's the best support team.

I love love love being able to have faith in such an amazing God.

"Behold, the eye of the Lord is on those who fear him, on those who hope in his steadfast love, that he may deliver their soul from death and keep them alive in famine." -Psalm 33:18-19


Always blessed,
Marissa Mayer

Smiles

Worked from 2 to close tonight and it went surprisingly well. I worked with some pretty great people and the time went fast.

When you have a better attitude about things, the time usually goes quicker. And when you surround yourself with great people, it's even better.

Tonight, I smiled a lot. Genuinely smiled. Because, for any of you out there who struggle like me, you can agree with me that those are hard to come by. Am I right?

But there are some really great times when I feel happy inside. Genuine happiness. I mean, sure it always ends up fading away, but in the moment- it's perfect. Don't let go of those. Hold onto those for as long as possible. Tonight after work I blared some really fun music and sang along. The whole way home. It felt so great.

I hope that each and every one of you have these kind of days once in a while. Because they're blessings. 

Love love love all of you! Up to 1.4k views!

God is good at ALL times,
Marissa Mayer

Sunday, August 16, 2015

Communication

Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't posted in a few days. I've been a little busy! But I have some super great thoughts for tonight.

How many times a day do you send texts? I for one, send countless amounts. It's how we communicate with our friends.

Now how many times a day do we communicate with God? Today I learned that communication is how we build relationships. And it's true. How do we make friends without talking to them? And the more we talk the stronger our friendship becomes. And it's the same with God. Through prayer.

Lately, I've been doing so much more praying. It truly makes me feel better. And knowing that it's strengthening my relationship with God is just an added bonus! The best part is, is that it doesn't even take that long. I talk to God many times throughout the day. Usually it's just a quick, "Help me through the day Lord." or something simple like that. If I'm nervous about a test I'll quick ask that He calms my nerves and allows me to do well.

Communication is extremely important in today's society. For example, had my parents had better communication, perhaps they wouldn't be where they are now. Communication can even be as simplistic as cars using their directionals (To all my driving and soon-to-be driving viewers, PLEASE use them!) 

To summarize, prayer is extremely important and useful. I encourage all of you to start making a prayer request list if it helps you pray or start a prayer group. Or even putting a little reminder on your phone to take a few minutes to tell God all about your day. He LOVES to hear from you! He wants to know everything about His children. What they hope for, what they're upset about, and even how their day was! God is your 24/7 "I need somebody to talk to hotline". He's always there.

And so am I! Well, not as much as God, but you get the idea. As always, feel free to contact me with any feedback.

Feel free to communicate- with God and me!
Marissa Mayer

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Simplicity

I didn't have the best day, but it was still pretty good. Here's why...

I woke up and went to my manager's meeting this morning. God was sure to remind me how blessed I am to have my job. Afterwards my best friend and I ran some errands and then I went home. She made me smile today.

When I got home though, I just didn't feel good- emotionally. I understand that this is a rough time for my mom, but sometimes I feel smothered by the sadness. And with where I'm at, I don't want to have to feel like that all the way until this is over (which won't be until the beginning of next year). Believe me, I have no clue what this must feel like for my mom- really. No clue whatsoever. But watching her cry and be sad all the time is very upsetting to me. And it certainly doesn't make me feel any better.

I try to hang out with my dad more, because I need a parent to talk to sometimes, and I obviously don't want to disturb mom and make things worse for her. But it seems as though I can't be around my dad without it upsetting her. I'm beyond frustrated with things at this point because despite his mistakes, he is still my dad and I still need him in my life. I feel sorry for him too- because this isn't what he wants. I feel sorry for my mom too- she deserves better. I just can't seem to please everybody at this point and it's very irritating.

But anyways, back to where I was. I had a rough morning after my meeting. So after lunch my brother and I watched movies and after dinner we went four-wheeling and it was a good time. During the time I spent with my brother, I came to realize that while all of this stressful stuff is happening, I'm forgetting to appreciate some of the simplest things in life. Like spending the afternoon with my brother. And the beauty of His Creation. I've been so ignorant of everything around me because I've been so self-centered on this divorce mess and everything else.

A very eye-opening day for me. Always blessed. Always.

The simplest things are the best things,
Marissa Mayer


Rough Night

Hey guys- I apologize for not blogging last night- it wasn't an easy one.

I went to dinner with my dad and brother and got into a very minor car accident. A car coming off the on ramp decided to get a little too close to my lane and ended up knocking off my side mirror. Got me a little shook up and stuff, but thankfully my dad ordered a new mirror for me and can get rid of the scratches on the side.

But then I went to bed and my mind wouldn't shut off. The idea of my parents getting this divorce and me not being able to live with both of them suddenly seemed real. I hated it. So, I ended up having another panic attack. Thankfully it was minor. I also got some help from my best friend.

When I woke up I felt better and came to realize that I might have a lot of these rough nights, especially in the near future, but it doesn't mean it's always going to be a rough life. God has a plan for me. And for you. And if that doesn't make you feel hopeful, then I don't know what will. Things will get better and that's what I love about my faith. It gives me something to look forward to even when I feel like I wanna give up. And today, I want to share my all time favorite bible verse with you:

"Sing praises to the Lord, O you his saints, and give thanks to his holy name. For his anger is but for a moment, and his favor is for a lifetime. Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes with the morning." -Psalm 30:4-5

I hope you all have a great rest of the day! Thank you all for the 1.2k views!

Love love love,
Marissa Mayer




Monday, August 10, 2015

Take One For Yourself

This morning I went to the orientation for my new job and came to realize that it was all going to be way too stressful. I'm already going to be taking all of the advanced classes offered to me, doing band and dance team and working at Culver's as a manager in training. After orientation I cried the whole way home.

So, I blared my music and had my window down and sang as loudly as I could. I was frustrated and really needed to feel some peace. The timing for this job was all wrong. I contacted the head of my Youth Apprenticeship program and was able to get out of the commitment. I decided that staying with it would be unhealthy for me and my mental health. Thankfully, they understood.

After all of this, I felt this huge weight come off of my shoulders and I went to my counselor's appointment. She told me that it was good that I recognized this and did it for myself. And I think that's important too. Sometimes, you gotta give yourself a break. Slow down. You don't have to conquer the world all at once. Especially if it's only going to add to the stress.

It's good to do things for yourself sometimes. For me, I knew that this job had been a commitment but I couldn't do it in the middle of this divorce and everything else. It's okay to admit that life is rough and lighten your load. I'm so happy that I did that today. Taking a huge piece of work off my plate will allow me to feel much better this year.

Keeping all of you in my prayers. Much love to each and every one of you! xx

Saved by His sweet grace,
Marissa Mayer

Sunday, August 9, 2015

The Best Book

Tonight I went to my church's youth group and we had a discussion on reading the bible. It really got me thinking- we have the freedom, the opportunity, to read God's Word. So why don't we take better advantage of that?

It doesn't have to be an hour long study or anything, but we should be reading it each and every day. It doesn't take much time to read a few verses and meditate on them. God's Word is a form of communication between us and God (besides prayer of course).

I really encourage all of you to do some sort of devotion or reading plan. It's a great way to get some daily thoughts out of His Word. It's a great book to read- and an even better one that you can apply to your daily life.

Hope all of you had a wonderful day...thanks for the 1.1k views! 

"For the word of the Lord is upright, and all his work is done in faithfulness. He loves righteousness and justice; the earth is full of the steadfast love of the Lord." -Psalm 33:4-5

Love always,
Marissa Mayer

Saturday, August 8, 2015

Feeling Great

Worked an 8 hour shift today with some of my favorite people and it was a really good day for me. Once again, God showed me just how blessed I am.

One of my coworkers and I had a blast working the drive thru tonight and she was always making me laugh. And for those few hours, I felt happy. It felt good to escape my depression for that time. Embrace those moments. Embrace the times when you can feel genuinely happy. Forget the tears. The pain. It's amazing. It's a gift.

I feel absolutely great today. I fixed things with the boy and fixed things with somebody else that really means a lot to me. I can breathe. No more pressure. No more feelings held inside. Just complete honesty.

I really thank God for being so good to me. I am beyond blessed. I hope all of you had a great day too! Praying for each and every one of my viewers.

"Oh, how abundant is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you and worked for those who take refuge in you; in the sight of the children of mankind." -Psalm 31:19

Blessed beyond belief,
Marissa Mayer

1k Views!!

I'm actually about to cry because I just came home from work to see that my blog reached it's first 1 thousand views. I really truly hope that you have been able to take something away from my blog- God has definitely blessed me.

Good news! I worked things out with the boy I mentioned in my previous post. I apologized for pushing him away and being the sweet and understanding boy that he is, he forgave me. I feel so much better about it now.

I had a really great day today and I hope all of you did too. I don't have an inspirational post for tonight, so I just thought I'd post a verse.

"Prove me, O Lord, and try me; test my heart and my mind. For your steadfast love is before my eyes, and I walk in your faithfulness." -Psalm 26:2-3

Thank you all so much. I am beyond blessed,
Marissa Mayer

Friday, August 7, 2015

Pull Not Push

I know this is late but my writer's block just went away...

Recently, there was a really great guy in my life. I work with him and he is so incredibly sweet and caring. We talked for a few weeks and he admitted to liking me. I thought I liked him too, and I told him that. I'm going through a really rough time at home though, so in the end I pushed him away saying I couldn't do this. "The timing is all wrong" is what I told myself.

And maybe it is...I haven't figured that out yet. But this boy was of great support to me! He called when I had an anxiety attack and always asked to make sure I was okay. He thought I was smart, and funny, and beautiful. He treated me like I had never been treated before. I was scared. I have been hurt by boys before and so I pushed him away. Deep into the friend-zone. And even though he didn't really admit it, it hurt him. I know it did. I know because I was in his position once. And I'm sure most of you can relate to that.

I used excuses to tell myself that I did the right thing. This happened quite recently, so I'm still not sure if I did the right thing or not. But as time goes on, I can see that I'm less and less sure that I did. Maybe the timing was right- in the sense that he was helping me through this. But maybe it was wrong in the sense that I don't need a boyfriend on top of everything.

Another example is my biological family. (Someday I will explain my whole entire backstory- but that's for another day) I pushed them away this past fall and I feel quite guilty about it. There are so many days that I cry because my little brother will never know why he can't see his sister anymore. I thought I did the right thing by telling them I wanted nothing to do with them. But, I can see that I actually hurt them more than I really intended. Sure, I wanted to make myself happy for once, but I didn't want to hurt them either. I'm still praying about this situation- and hoping that soon I can repair what's been broken.

What I'm trying to point out is that don't be so quick to push people away. They're in your life for a reason. Don't be afraid to pull them closer if you think you could use them in your life. I encourage you to pray about it. Because, I didn't and things aren't going as well as I hoped. God will make it clear to you who you need and don't currently need in your life. I say currently, because they might fit in later. Perhaps not right now. And that's sort of how I'm feeling about both of these situations.

Always here for you guys,
Marissa Mayer


Wednesday, August 5, 2015

Too Much Too Fast

I drove myself to work today. I start my second job on Monday. I'm visiting Vanderbilt representatives in Milwaukee tonight. 

My question is: When did life speed up? When did it take a turn towards crazy?

I was by my dad today when he was working and he was quiet. Too quiet. Didn't say more than 2 words. His eyes were sad. My heart broke for him. He must have found out about the divorce.

I know that last night I blogged about how I want my mom to be happy- but that doesn't mean I want to watch my dad hurt either. He knows his mistakes hurt us. I just wish there was another way to heal our broken family. 

Personally, I'm struggling. God is allowing a lot on my plate and I'm feeling very weak. I ask for yet another prayer request: that I can find peace and healing.

One verse that I love in scripture is Jeremiah 29:11. (I'll let you guys look that one up for yourselves if you haven't read it yet...) God's plans are working for us...even though I can't see it right now, He has our best interest in mind. 

Wishing life would slow down a little,
Marissa Mayer

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Sweet 16

Well, today was my 16th birthday. I got my license and had a pretty decent day. God has truly blessed me with great friends and family. (Also a great amount of viewers: 800+)!!

I didn't ask for much for my birthday but was very pleased with the arrangement of gifts that were given to me. Don't get me wrong- I love them all, but there was one thing I really wanted that I knew nobody could get me. (And it's not the Selmer Paris Series III Alto Sax...)

What I really want is my mom to be happy. She is the greatest woman in my life and I love her to death. But sometimes she has a bad day and I can tell. All I want is for her to be happy. And maybe this divorce will allow her to be happy, but the process isn't and I wish it could all be over already. To see my mom with a smile on her face everyday would be the best present I could have ever gotten.

So, I have a little prayer request. That my mom could find peace and happiness. Because watching her hurt really kills me inside.

God has blessed me so much in these past 16 years and I am incredibly grateful. He simply is wonderful at all times.

In His sweet love,
Marissa Mayer

Monday, August 3, 2015

Outlets

Good evening viewers! I am happy to announce that today marks the official one week mark of my blog existing and I already have 775 views!

I know that on a lot of rough days, I need a way to just relax and calm down. After saying a prayer I usually find myself drowning in music or dancing. I live and breathe music, and it's usually the only thing that can really make me feel better. Another thing that works for me is reading through Psalms. It has SO many great passages!

Finding a creative outlet can really help you to take a step back and take a deep breath. Whether it's art, music, baking, a sport...whatever it is, I encourage you to use it to your advantage! These things are truly gifts from God.

I hope all of you had a really great day! Thanks for all the support!

"You have turned for me my mourning into dancing; you have loosed my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness, that my glory may sing your praise and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks to you forever." -Psalm 30:11-12

Much love to all of you,
Marissa Mayer 

xo

Sunday, August 2, 2015

In The Dark

Good evening everyone! Sorry this is such a late post- my power was out. Lots of bad stormy weather in my area today.

I went to my cousin's 11th birthday party today and had a really great time with my family. Unfortunately, when I got back home, the power was out. (Looking, back I probably could have used the data on my phone and made this post but whatever) Of course it was already dark outside, so I couldn't see a thing! It was very irritating and I got frustrated. I had to take my little candle or flashlight everywhere! Thankfully, it was only off for a half hour (or less).

Have you ever felt "in the dark"? Like it's hard to see where God is leading you...and you just feel lost? I feel that way a lot- and it can get very hard. But the truth is, God works in mysterious ways. Sometimes He leads us through the darkness so that we can grow stronger in Him. It might be hard to see when you're in the dark, but He's truly leading you to amazing places. Just stay strong and steady in your faith through lots of prayer...and prayer...and more prayer.

Tonight, I was anxious for the power to come back on, and when it did, I realized how impatient I had been. I encourage all of you who are going through rough times to hold on tight to your faith because God will deliver you from each trial that life throws your way.

"Wait for the Lord; be strong and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!" -Psalm 27:14

Blessings to all of you,
Marissa Mayer

P.S. Up to 683 page views! I'm so excited! 

Another Beautiful Sunday Morning

Up to 593 views- I am so excited about this blog! I check it about 50 times a day!

I hope all of you had the great opportunity to worship this morning. If you didn't, I hope you can set aside a few minutes to do a devotion or say a quick prayer. Otherwise, I will be doing another post tonight hopefully!

It's a beautiful day- a little humid here, but another day given to us by our Heavenly Father. How blessed are we?! I hope all of you are doing well- once again, feel free to contact me if you need me!

Thank you so much for reading my blog so far- my goal is to reach 1000 views by the end of the week! Please feel free to comment your thoughts or leave any suggestions. Or if you would rather, shoot me an email. All input is greatly appreciated.

In His love,
Marissa Mayer





Saturday, August 1, 2015

Forgiveness

Today my mom and I went driving and shopping and had a fabulous day. Unfortunately, yesterday hadn't been so fabulous. We had an argument and I felt bad for a lot of the things I had said. I apologized but knew Mom would need some time. Of course, every morning is a new day and we ended up having a great day together. (Got lots of stuff for my birthday too!)

I know that a lot of times it can be extremely rough to forgive somebody. It was really hard for me to forgive my dad after everything that has happened. But when you look back on every sin you have ever committed- don't you feel a little guilty? There's probably plenty more that you can't even recall. Now multiply that by 7 billion (the population of the world). That's a lot of sins. And that's not even counting all the people before us! But God's love for us was so strong, that He forgave each and every one of those sins.

Isn't that amazing? We have a Creator who loves us enough to sacrifice His only Son for all of our sins. This really encourages me to do the same by forgiving those who sin against me. I'm also very happy that my mom found it in her heart to forgive me. Forgiveness is key to our lives as Christians. We should love as Christ first loved us, and forgive- just as Christ first forgave us.

"In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace." -Ephesians 1:7

I would also like to thank everyone once more for their support as I reached 500+ views on my blog!

Blessings on the rest of your evening,
Marissa Mayer